8.3.13
What is wrong with me why can't I make any decisions for f's sake- fell asleep at the desk around 6
- woke up 2 hours later for school
- death was consuming me
- scared my dad because my eyes were deadset bloodshot before i left the house
- mum made 鲜肉月饼 (i think those are the characters for it? not sure about the first one) and i took one despite the fact that everything i eat these days makes me nauseous and plus she woke up really early in the morning to make these and i couldn't just stand there and cold heartedly say no
- attempted to eat it really slowly on the train, sensation of throwing up for the next two hours lol
- stayed in the library and made English notes despite having class
- couldn't breathe properly
- legit had to plan breathing in and out for quite a while
- pissed myself laughing during English, ehehe i just love the people around me in English
- (it's the only subject i look forward to these days)
- napped after school, and i think i caught a cold? despite the fact that it was 26 degrees and i've mostly been sweating my ass off today
You know what sucks?
I know how many medical issues the entire family (both mum and dad's side) have. I know they're all or most of them are hereditary. And it sucks when you're told you have symptoms for certain ones already. I'm not even stressing out anymore, I don't even care anymore. If I know it's going to happen, then I'm just going to let it be, BUT WHY ME. WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME. AND FUCK WHY SO EARLY
