17.4.13
I am really frustrated at the moment. Not only because of HSC, but because of all the other bits and pieces in life which accumulated to a massive heaped pile which is dumped onto you as a burden. Why does my luck run out when I meet the perfect people? It just bam vanishes, as if it never existed in the first place. What luck did I even have in the first place lol. But after today, a burdening yet ironically relieving day, I think I have become more determined and motivated in my ways. I don't think I've been this happy talking to someone with a language barrier, especially talking to けい。Even though it was a short 15-20 minute conversation it instantly made me forget everything that was worrying me, it really is the little things in life that brighten your day. - I want to do well as a person
- I want to attend university and study commerce/languages (Law is already out of range with my marks this semester, it's quite depressing when you realise that you are unable to accomplish one of your goals. No matter what people say, 'there's still time til trials/HSC, you just need to study harder', can you guys like seriously stop sugar coating everything. We've already been through two assessment blocks aka like 50% of your school mark and to know that you've probably fucked up each and every single one of those assessments, you just automatically realise that the path towards the high 90s will become unbearable. )
- 2015 I want to study in Japan for one year- especially Tokyo University (#1 university in Japan)
Except that they currently don't provide English language programs hence there goes my chance haha - Scratch that ^, I'm definitely going to study in Japan in 2015.
After talking to Clay, unbottling everything that has left me unsettled for the past 6 hours, he taught me two things: the 5 second rule and 'yesterday, you said tomorrow'. I think this is the best advice I've received from anyone in the past 16 years of my existence and he probably doesn't know how grateful I am (especially since all I've been doing these days is teasing/making fun/being mean to him sigh)
