7.8.13
- Walked into the library, saw everyone with sheets and notes out- stood there in awe and said 'ohayou' instead of konnichi ha. It felt like the death of me to see everyone going hardcore, and then there's me with a flaming ear and no study at all
- During listening all I could hear was my heartbeat pounding in my left year and I swear it's swollen inside or something (doctor couldn't find out what it is) or inflamed or satan is trying to build an empire in my ear but it burrrrrns and it's uncomfortable and I found it so hard to concentrate during listening and even harder during writing/reading because it was just 'boom, boom, boom' throughout the 3 hours
- Definitely not going to be 1st again
- Bodelia and I ran to the station in 7 minutes after the exam and holy fuck we are never running again. I was in feverish state anyway and after running my bones just felt like dislocating themselves and everything was just so sore. I tried to divert my attention away from the pain so I attempted to indulge myself in as much conversation on the train (even though it just hurt to talk crey)
- Went to the doctor's again after because it just felt like absolute death
Might have the flu though crey - Got home, immediately asked Taiga what he wrote in his responses and holy shit he actually sincerely replies with a shitload of text outlining what he wrote. He also said he fucked up too especially for the 150 ji task (even though it sounded fine to me) and how he didn't use many complex structures........ but he used 'you ni' several times...... hOW IS THAT NOT COMPLEX
- I also tried to shove in a 'you ni' in the 150ji in the last sentence and I don't think I used it right (Taiga isn't sure either because he thinks that he used it when it was unnecessary/wrongly) so I don't think we're gonna do as great like last time
- I think I'm going to get marked down for writing shrine rather than temple
- AND 80% OF THE EXAM WAS DESCRIBING HOW THE PEOPLE'S ATTITUDES CHANGED AND WITH MY LIMITED VOCABULARY, I USED POSITIVE ATTITUDE 5000 TIMES BECAUSE I JUST COULD NOT THINK STRAIGHT WITH A DOKI DOKI IN MY EAR 24/7
Someone eat me I don't want to live anymore
