15.2.14
After no sleep on the plane (but it was okay because a qt halfie sat behind me hehe) and watching Gravity 3 times (I couldn't pick what I wanted to watch for some reason) I hopped off at 10am and spent the next half an hour waiting for my luggage to appear. My first main luggage appeared after 5 minutes of waiting but my stupid Lonsdale bag decided to come out after 25 minutes. Felt sorry for the halfie qt because he came only a few minutes after me and after half an hour he's still waiting empty handed.- Brother picked me up and kept poking me on my way out :( I looked like an absolute retard because I kept spazzing every time he jabbed my sides
- Got home, dumped all my luggage in my room, showered and headed out to City
- I wanted to LoL so bad but Intergate was pretty full so we headed to Olleh Olleh and can I just stress how shit this net cafe is like no joke spent 80% of the one hour trying to find a computer that worked but then nek minnut broken keyboard. Switched computers and then bam mouse wouldn't work. Finally found a running computer but oh wait no you have to wait 400 hours for LoL to patch then nek minnut your computer dies on you and LoL server error. On the 58th minute of my one hour (when the majority of the team had died/their one hour was up) my LoL decided to finally work but you know, "1 minute left" notice popped up and I internally died. Watched Andrew play the alcoholic guy and holy shit dat farming ermahgerd
- But yeah Olleh Olleh sucks shit and the Koreans were pree rude
- Mizuya for two hours and I swear to god Jay's voice is higher than all the girls' voices.
- Then Howjer and Marshall came and their performances were amazeballs, I could see the potential in Marshall yanoe
Headed to Kobow then shit started to happen. Something was bothering Andrew, Jay backed out after two shots of soju and after 7 bottles of soju among 5 people, everything started to go downhill. Felt pretty shit because I couldn't help Andrew and knowing about how he felt towards everything was also quite hard to accept. Went down to Darling Harbour for a bit only to get a call "Are you Anthony's friend? He passed out in the toilet" so we all headed back. It was so awkward for Jenny, Luan and I because we kept going in and out of the male toilet to check on him and stupid faggot wouldn't get up and stayed on the ground for over half an hour.
Anthony reminds me of Mr Burns from The Simpsons for some reason. Way back home was truthfully scary because I was legit brain dead. I had a war raging on in my mind because of the fact that I couldn't make myself lie to a close friend just for my own selfish needs. And since no one from Penshurst station walked along the streets which led to home, my trip home was basically filled with fear.
- Went to bed around 1 because I had tutor the morning after but for some reason I woke up at 5am. I was so thirsty so I dragged myself out of bed and devoured nearly a litre of liquid then I went back to sleep, only to find myself being thirsty for the entire day
- When I woke up I literally could not find a reason to live for anymore. As weird and dramatic as this sounds, I couldn't find anything. I suddenly felt so scared about the future, about university, about work and where I'm heading. I also missed my mum alot. Like, alot. Not sure why but I felt really lonely at that point in time and I didn't know who to go to anymore.
- Tutoring with Claire was frustrating as usual but 2 hours in her mum brought KFC for lunch and invited me to join them huehue
- Spent the next two hours shopping and my arms legit were in pain because I was holding 10 days worth of groceries and 6L of juice and I kept kicking myself for buying so much
- Got home, spoke my thoughts and what I truly thought on a certain matter. Not sure how I feel about anything anymore
