27.3.14
傻傻的你不敢说爱。Hi, do you still read my blog? Even though things have changed, I've definitely missed you. But not in the way I thought I would be missing you. I hope you're doing well, I hope you're striving to aim for what you really wanted to achieve. I've never told you this before, but there's this song from Wayward Kenting. It's something I usually don't listen to but for some reason, I really like it. I've known this song since 2007 but I've never actually paid attention to the lyrics or appreciate it. One day, I decided to sing along to it. It was then that I realised how silly the lyrics were, how impossible it would be for anyone to feel like that, to have these feelings towards anyone. Then I met you. It felt ridiculous at that time, like as if I could actually 100% relate to that song. That's how unreal the lyrics seemed, it just sounded impossible for someone to feel this happy about another person. But I felt it. It was as if I was the luckiest and happiest girl in the world at that point in time.
Tonight, I come across this song on my playlist. I'm unconsciously smiling. I once thought that these memories would serve to haunt me, suffocate me and make me feel like I'm drowning. Oh how wrong was I. Even though this "happiness" only lasted for a short period of time, in hindsight, I'm grateful for it even happening in the first place. Yes I was greedy in the past, I wished that this feeling would last an eternity. How silly was I for believing in "eternity". But now that I look back at it, I'm extremely thankful that life decided to make me go through all of this... thankful that I had the opportunity and chance to experience these feelings. Even though I don't think it's possible to find someone else who I can relate this song with, I think it's better if things stays like that.
I don't know why I feel so nostalgic tonight, all of this sudden reminiscing. Even though we're all on different pages now, it's just nice to know we were once both on the same page. Hehe, feeling especially warm and fuzzy now.
说不出有多么快乐，还是不够。这感觉这一切。
就好想飘在外太空，别的星球，只有我们存在。
